A friend of mine recently shared the following quote from Meditations on the Tarot: A Journey into Christian Hermeticism (by Valentin Tomberg). It speaks powerfully to what I believe is the deepest spiritual core of the desire to take one’s own life:
At the root of the depression and despair which lead to suicide, the element of dissatisfaction is to be found, i.e. the desire and assertion for another form of life or another way of living. One is not dissatisfied if one does not want anything. One does not despair, if one does not hope for anything. One does not kill oneself if one does not take life seriously. All dissatisfaction presupposes the affirmation of an imagined happiness. All despair presupposes a virtual hope. Thus, all suicide presupposes the passionate affirmation of some value in life: love, glory, honour, health, happiness.
